Arl

“Lazy Sunday morning...then

suddenly remember one special person and had nothing to do but to smile then utter "for God's sake I am missing you, where are you...???'" 

           ---Arl--- ^_^

Arl“There are people you can’t live without…but you have to let go.”---Arl

                                              

 " My past will always be my present... 

   I may not be perfect but I absolutely know  

 I am always honest of whatever I feel. 

    And I'm so grateful about it, as a person..."   -----

----ARL...

Arl

Matured enough to be afraid!!!

Vladimir Lenine Ave

 Vladimir Lenine Ave

      HahahaJ…Vladimir Lenine Ave! I will never forget this Avenue. Ever! I was only 56 days old here @Moz then, when that thing happened…..

      It was one dusky afternoon, when I decided to buy one important thing for me to use. Because I’m absolutely new in this place then (“still experiencing culture shock at that time”), I can’t go out without anyone with me (“and my Aunt won’t allow me either”). So, what I did? I scram and stroll alone and finally bought that thing that I desire. Not knowing I was too far from the street where I live. (“Which is I realized lately that,,,that place is not TOTALLY far from my place.”)So, to continue with the story;;;…. There am I…!!! Time to go home! Ngaaaakkk…I started asking myself, “Where am I now?.”Am I lost???Its my first time and I’m not a child to be in this thing.”

      Just like what I’ve said I’m absolutely new in this place by then, so I never had the idea in whatever the name of this street. (“In any case?, When did I learn to be aware of the name of the streets where I’m always going?”I know its one big mistake!”)  

      Then, I continuously walked until I noticed I’m getting more far from the place where I’ve been.

      Oh my God! My heart throb so fast, my knees even started to shake. I’d felt “too much” panicky thing inside of me. But still I walked confidently in this Avenue. Later on, I can’t do anything but to call my aunt’s friend (I can’t absolutely call my aunt, because I’m afraid, for sure she will get mad on me for scramming.) And it so happened that my aunts’ friend was out and busy so she can’t go and rescue me. I have no choice….I called my aunt with my one bar battery cell phone….Embarrassing to admit but I really was weeping by that time on the phone while talking to her…. The bad thing was…. I’m not yet finished talking,,,, my cell phone OFF!...tweeep,,,tweeeep…tweeeep…..yaaayyysss… Totally lowbat! Huhuhuhu….But the good thing….I was able to describe the place where I’m standing and the name of the restaurant in front of me. After maybe half hour, they arrived (my aunt and her friend) asking me how did it happened?I’m there without their knowing? I can’t answer properly, I’m still nervous. I’m nervous of two things………(First------……Second-----…..) Hahaha Anyway, I know it’s my fault. So obviously she gets mad!!! But when she saw me weeping, she stopped and said “Never do it again, you never had the idea on how you make me nervous today”!!!

My first time!!!

Lessons Learned:

1.       Never scram and stroll alone.

2.       Be aware of the streets/avenues name on where you’re going.

3.       Never leave the house with almost low battery handy phone.

4.       Even you’re nerves are shaking because of fear, still calmed down.

5.       Know your fault. ---if it’s your fault make sure admit it.

6.       After bad things happened, LISTEN TO MUSIC! KEEP SILENCE! And just CRY!

Vladimir Lenine Avenue you taught me a lot!  

I am me!

This is real. This is me.

Arl

This is ME

Secretive yet witty; Sensitive yet sweet; I'm not a friendly kind of person but I am a sincere, caring and loving friend. I never believed in million friends yet you can't consider them all as your true friend. I better prefer exiguous number of friend but I'm pretty sure they're really true friend. I love reading novel books and watching Hollywood films. I like Keanu Reeves; I admire Vin Diesel; "BUT" I love Brad Pitt!... I never believe in promises but i always believe in love. That's me! The real me!

Mistakes

Maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life.And maybe I haven’t moved on since that night.hhhffff...Can't sleep once more. Please dry this tears. I'm not that strong to move on.

After that call i dont think i am ok now. Seems that its breaking every thing inside of me. I cant absolutely understand my feelings....WAS IT REALLY MY FAULT???

FANTASY LAND ^-^

---arl

Dream place I see
Feel happy as we 
Pain hard to be
Until when this glee
Fantasy you and me
Destiny never will be

It’s always a fantasy

Shouldn’t come to reality
 
Places full of memory
 
Together we build destiny 

Follow the way bravely
  
THIS LAND OF FANTASY!

Another year @ Mozambique

         Here comes April 29th again, counting another year of my stay here in Mozambique. I encountered many things and I know I will still continue to meet many ups and downs. But since Life is always like that, it has all kinds of interesting experiences! I know I need to be sufficiently brave to face those challenges in life. God knows how much I wanted and almost terribly gave up sometimes because of the pressure I’d met. And God only knows how much I miss my family and all the people who are always around me in my homeland. My friends---night outs, huge malls, busy streets, and my most favorite place in all places the “NATIONAL BOOKSTORE” in the Philippines. I MISS THOSE MANY BOOKS OF “NATIONAL BOOKSTORE”!!!

         Nevertheless, despite the fact of all those hardships, Mozambique taught me a lot. I already learned how to embrace all what I have here in this place. If before I only hang on in the house, spend, spend, and spend… now I learned how to have my own earnings and even value at true worth.

         Another year in Mozambique,…. another year to live and to banish worry…. To bravely face all my doubt and fear…. To live each day with enthusiasm… To grow daily and always try to do best... Once more to right all the wrongs.

        Mozambique!!! you made me more realized one of the biggest question mark in my life......”I KNOW I CAN”….!!!

Fantasy

Fantasy
 by: Arl

If I'm only be free.
As free as a pretty bee.
Sure, you can own me.
We stay together can be.
But please, take care of me.

Now that, we're both not free.
No time for loneliness as be.
Ultimately, let's fly as high as tree.
Like the pristine birds that fly candidly.
Like dainty butterfly down the garden blithely.

Only in our dreams, never in reality.
Maybe we can be, I'm afraid completely.
Let's live happily, but not hurt somebody.
Better keep carefully your unclouded love as a great fantasy.
Then I'll keep mine like a pie in the sky.

ARL ^_^

Look at You Heart

WAAAFFFF..... I AM SUPPOSED TO BE TEACHING NOW In This HOuR, BUT I CAN'T KEEP MY MIND THINKING ABOUT YOU.....haha :))) i cant believed it,,,in This hour "i am totally present but mentally absent" haissttt Before i forgot, i am in front of my extra lesson class so i need to go on with my teaching life hahaha :)))) ANYWAY..... always remember..... Anytime and anywhere you'll fine myself in your loving heart....all you need to do is just closed your eyes...and you will be here with me....(my Goodness!!!! Its only in my dream haha:))))
How i wish love is like that....by just looking at your own heart,,,then suddenly you will absolutely know that 'there is he'.... Its just a wish...

What is it for?

       I can’t imagine I didn’t even sleep because of you. It’s almost 5am and I’m still awake. Three more hours to go and I need to go to school for my sworn job with a profound heart. I will never forget this night or morning rather.  

  …..“I don’t even know why, other people keep on promising things, since they don’t even know what’s the meaning and the purpose of those PROMISES??? What is it for???Maybe it’s true, as the other people used to say, “Promises are made to be broken.” (ITS BETTER NEVER PROMISE)

       I  HARDLY CRIED… :’(  AND  ITS  ABSOLUTELY ENOUGH  I  WILL AUSTERELY  NEVER  LET  ANYONE  TO HURT  My FEELINGS  ANYMORE!!! :(  

      If this is only a part of challenges in life???,,,well then,,, i never want this kind of feelings.

Stay   Away!

          The moment I extremely used to see you, are the moment I feel the immense sadness within me. Nevertheless, I never think I could intently feel like this before. It was all inept started into a simple message. The moment I don’t want to think utterly about it, the more its making me realized how closer you are to me.

          Stay away! Please STAY AWAY FROM ME! I never enormously want to hurt my own receptive feelings. One more thing, I never dreamed to be selfish as the other people do. Lastly, I never wish to hurt somebody because of this egoistic way of thinking. I always want to be happy but I don’t want to hurt somebody. Please help me ease this pain. STAY AWAY! Please stay away from me. Never look at me.

         Nonetheless, I never was too good with waywardness goodbyes. However if you will help me to do so, it would be very easy for me, with bliss and candor.  

  ---ARL♥♥♥