I have this feeling inside me that I've always tried to hide 

This feeling has never ended, didn't ever subside 

I realized that keeping it would only cause me pain 

So I tried to forget about it but the feeling only remained 

Tell me will I ever survive 

Stop my tears and keep it inside 

Holding back myself from being close to you…..

Path

         I know no matter what happens to me, I always have freedom of mind. Which only means that I always have freedom to choose the path of virtue over the path of suffering,  or to choose being one with God over being alone. I miss all the people who love and give importance to me...I did miss them a lot!!!...Things that I don't understand sometimes is that, why do they need not to exist?!

            I choose this way...I choose this freedom...”Freedom of being alone”...A path of suffering but a path of being with "you". Yes I do and always believe in God but I do believe in you too. I believe in your love (as you say so) (though I feel you’re absolutely not...)

             It's what I am...It’s how I fall in love...and it’s why I'm allowing you to fleece my candid feeling. No matter what!!!…??? I choose this freedom,,,” A FREEDOM OF LOVING YOU SECRETLY!!!” It’s how it needs to be.

                                                                                                                         

                                                           by:    ^_^   ARL

Duped

“Don’t say you missed me whilst in fact I know you never do.” Don’t make me believe once more to a thing that I did believe before. Instead help me value myself… Stop that dupe!!! 

January 1, 2013

      "Good bye 2012!!! You had been taught me a lot. I did cry and did laugh. I can even say that… I did quite stumble down. But the thought there is I am still grateful that because of you, I learned how to become more strong and stand once more to face and welcome 2013 with self-importance and understanding  for every circumstances I’ll be meeting for this another whole year 2013. Please be good to me 2013!!! " 

                                    ---Arl ^_^